A big surprise and a massive comeback

Hello everyone!

Who has ever thought that I would sit here and write a blog post for you after such a long time?
I am really sorry for those of you that have been waiting for another post and I am also really grateful for all my lovely readers that kept on following me.

So why did I take this ridiculous long break?
My last post was in October. Since summer I had a lot of problems in my life: my heart was broken, I moved in my first own flat, I began studying for the first time and therefore, had to find new friends. Combined with emotional problems and a total confusion in my head, my struggle was complete.
I hope, you respect that I don't want to go too much into detail and you still can't accept that because I had so much in my head, I couldn't find a rational, clear moment to write the blog. Also I really wanted to enjoy writing a post and not being supposed to forced myself to do it.

Two days ago, I looked in my blog and was so amazed by all your lovely comments and that you really enjoy reading what I am writing. Finally, I found my love for my blog again, the passion for writing the blog, taking the photos and being creative.

So here I am back with loads of ideas. I am fully motivated to write great blog posts for you and I hope so are you :)

Again, I hope that you can understand the break that my body just needed.

I wish you an amazing day!

Love,

What The Hell Was Going On?! - Everything changed

Hello guys!

How are you?
I can not express how much I have missed you. I also know that there is no really obvious excuse why I have been absent for such a long time. It literally feels like ages since I sat down and really wrote a blog post for you. Thus, I want to take the time and explain what was going on with my life.

Do you know when you suddenly lose the fun to do something or your head is full of so many things that there is just no space left for something that was important in your previous life, but can't cooperate with your new one?
Well, that happened when I met my first boyfriend, fell in love and had some wonderful months. I focused so much on him that I neglected quite a lot of things and what happened? Yes, we quit with a lot of tears and pains on my side only after three months. I had to suffer from my first lovesickness. Plus I graduated from school, I have now my Abitur, I applied to many universities and moved into a new city. The problem was that I didn't get an university place in the city where I wanted to, so I was really frustrated. However, a few days ago I got my desired university place, which was so surprising! Also, I started my hunter's license which was pretty hard and included a lot of learning, but I successfully also achieved this.

So who I am now? // I am a law student in my favourite city. I am living alone in a tiny studio apartment, because the rents are incredible high here. I am living central in a metropolis, but still have to cope with living alone. I have had my first boyfriend, I am over him and I am really enjoying my single life. I am sometimes thinking about him and I have no new boyfriend. I have learnt how important it is to have good friends and I am became a lot more social, spontaneous and open. //

I really feel that with me being a student a new chapter in my life starts. And you are a part of this new chapter. I needed the break during this transition and here I am back in order to post new content and new posts.

So I am questioning you: Do you like the content of the previous posts or are you interested in something new, other emphasis? More fitness, health, food, recipes post or staying with the haul, fashion and beauty section?

I am so glad that I am ready to start again & I hope that you are staying with me!

Lots of love,

Life Update: Abitur, Study, Moving Out, Boyfriend,...

Hello everybody!

I hope you are doing well!
I wanted to give you a little update of my life, what is going on, what happened and what are my plan for the future as I haven't done such a post for a really long. Or have I ever done such a post? Anyway.
As some of you might have heard, I have finished my final exams which means that I still have to pass my oral exams in June and obviously have to pass both tests and then I am done. But let's say that the written part was the toughest one and after months of learning I am finally relieved. The problem is that I seriously don't know what I have to do in my free time. I had to set aside most of my hobbies or any deep pleasures and reading a normal book made me feel that I forget everything that I have learned. So now, I actually could do everything, but still can't enjoy the hobbies as I still have the longing to do something efficient or effective.

The next huge step is that I am going to move into my own flat. Okay, it's not going to happen before September, but this step, which also includes starting to study, opens up a complete new chapter in my life resp. is a complete new life. This step gives me more freedom and independence, but also means that I have more responsibilities, tasks and have to do more serious decisions and stand for them. I think you call this growing up or maturity and I am excited and a bit scared of this new chapter in the same time. However, this may allow me to become more self-confident and to do what I want.

Another step is to incorporate a healthy and well-balanced diet into my eating plan when I live alone. I already eat quite healthy and I even think that this will become a bit easier as I decide what I buy and I usually don't buy sweets for my own, thus, there will be only "clean food" in my fridge. Hopefully ;)
And I assume a really clean and controlled eating plan will also push my fitness level to a next level. So I think about starting the ZCUT Program created by Zuzka Light once it is released in Europe while I am living a home and really get in the best shape I have ever been.

I also still want to change my attitude towards the life. Basically, I want to enjoy the life more, be more spontaneous, live the moment and not worry so much about everything and everyone. Just to be my own individual with my own personality, my own dreams and own longings -  just to be authentic. I started with this project last year and I did a lot of progresses and learned to enjoy my life with all senses. The only step that is missing is finding a proper and serious relationship. I don't want to talk about my past relationships, I want to look forward and the thing is that I was so busy because of my Abitur and was a bit too focused on school in the past. So yes, I am ready to love someone as I learned to love myself! ;)

Okay, before I start to talk about god and the world, I just stop here, but I hope you liked this little life update. Tell me what has been going on in your life and what had been your experiences when you were moving out?

Wish you a wonderful day! Love,

50 Random Facts About Me

Hello guys!

How are you?
This is a tag that has been going around during the last couple of days and I really liked the idea of telling some random facts about yourself so that, in this case, you as my readers, will learn things about me that you haven't known. So let's get started.

#1 I suck at sport and was never good in it, especially in team sports. So only think I can do is playing golf.

#2 My best subjects are history and art.

#3 I hate R.E., but I am good in it.

#4 I hate workouts that I longer than 30 minutes.

#5 I have a phobia of snails. When I see them or someone is talking about them, I get goose bump, my body starts to shake and the longing to run away.

#6 I always eat breakfast.

#7 I can't do a workout before breakfast otherwise I would faint.

#8 I have an addictive personality which means that I can get addicted to everything: reading, food, health, sport, chewing gum, games etc.

#9 I love learning.

#10 I always have to do something otherwise I feel useless. I think you call this a workaholic.

#11 I am a really early bird. I hate to sleep in because I always have the feeling that I have to do soooo much.

#12 I only go clubbing approx. 3-5 times a year, because I hate to stay awake longer than 2.30 a.m. as I hate to sleep in :)
#13 I love watching documentaries!
#14 love reading Atlas and browsing through fact books.
#15 I am pretty good in written discussions or argumentations.

#16 I don't think Beauty is the most important in the world and would never do something like blogging or "youtubing" as a full-time job.
#17 I am pretty reasonable, rational and inpatient. Thus, some people think that i am not that caring or open-hearted, but I really care for people that are important for me and also can be hurt pretty easily.
#18 Therefore, I hate drama and appear to be really calm without behaving insecure.
#19 During a conflict I always try to understand the other position in order to reflect about my one.
#20 My first CD was Britney Spears "Oops... I Did It Again"
#21 I adored Britney Spears, Westlife and B3 as a child.
#22 I have periods where I am totally into books and then I read noting for 1/4 year also because of school stress.
#23 I am a bit of an hypochondriac.
#24 I have a huge feeling of disgust, thus, I can't use someone's glass, cutlery etc. and hate public toilets.
#25 I like to flirt.
#26 I am 100% German (1/4 Bavarian, 1/2 Hessian, 1/4 now Czech Republic, but before that it was called "Sudentenland")
#27 I have a really sweet tooth.
#28 I love watching at landscapes, e.g. USA, Canada, but only on TV.
#29 I am a tea-addict.
#30 I have never travelled to country outside of Europe, but I have travelled a lot.
#31 I go hunting.
#32 I am neither vegetarian nor vegan.
#33 I hate fish to eat, to watch, to feel, ....
#34 I get homesick so badly every single time when I am traveling.

#35 Bangs look absolutely horrible on me, but I have always had bangs.
#36 When I was 6 years old, I visited my grandparents and because I was so bored, I wrote a little letter in which I explained that I definitely don't want to stay here any longer. Unfortunately, my grandmother found the letter in the bin and was totally depressed. My mum asked me to apologise for this, but I never did as I was convinced that it was incredible boring there. :)
#37 The first Youtubers that I discovered where the German ones EbruZa and Sturmboe, then I discovered the "English" Youtubers Kandee Johnsson and Pixi2woo.
#38 I am a perfectionist.
#39 I love neutral colours and gold, ivory and dark brown.
#40 I am nearsighted and also own contact lenses, but I always forget them.
#41 I am a bit observant, so that I recognise weird habits or insecurities of other people really fast.
#42 I get bored really quickly and can't do something for a really long time, e.g. 3 hours reading.
#43 I get mean and unfriendly when I am tired and hungry.
#44 I never was a girly girl.
#45 As a child, I always dreamed of having light blonde hair.
#46 I am really bad in making decisions.
#47 I always wake up at 6am during the week and at 7am on the weekend.
#48 I like to be organised and plan everything, but I had it when other people do it.
#49 I keep my mobile phone turned off on weekends and during holidays.
#50 I always say that I don't like coffee, but I have started to love it.

Congratulations every one who made it through all fifty facts.. no not fifty shades of Marie :) I hope you found a bit interesting and let me know a few random fact about you!

Lots of love,

Things About Me - Tag

1. Beschreibe dich in 3 Wörtern!
ehrgeizig, ungeduldig, vernünftig

2. Wie fühlst du dich, wenn du einen Blog schreibst?
Zuerst war es eher unangenehm, da man sozusagen ins Nichts seine Gedanken hinein schrieb und dennoch für das Nichts das Beste und die hilfreichsten Posts schreiben wollte. Mittlerweile hat sich das mit den ersten Followers gewandelt. Ich schreibe nun einen Post, weil ich weiß, es interessiert sich jemanden dafür, weshalb ich auch immer mehr Spaß am bloggen finde.

3. Was magst du nicht an deinem Aussehen?
Ich mag Füße überhaupt nicht und finde auch diese Fettpolster an den Oberschenkelinnenseiten völlig unnötig.

4. Ohne welches Produkt willst du nicht rausgehen?
Concealer. Es kaschiert meine Unreinheiten und Augenringe und es schadet ja nie zu minntest ein wenig lebendiger und frischer das Haus zu verlassen.

5. Machst du etwas obwohl du es nicht kannst? Wenn ja, was?Ich habe nie das Gitarre spielen professionell gelernt, sondern habe es mir in den letzten Jahren mehr oder weniger versucht selbst beizubringen. Nun ja, es ich kann Lieder spielen, aber ich bin definitiv kein Gitarrenvirtuose. Dennoch hält das mich nicht davon ab, Gitarre zu spielen :)

6. Was würdest du gerne an dir ändern, tust es aber nie?
Ich wollte mir schon immer meine Haare färben. Ich wollte sie immer heller haben, mittlerweile würde ich sogar braun ausprobieren.

7. Was magst du nicht an anderen Menschen?Ungerechtigkeit, Unpünktlichkeit und Scheinheiligkeit, also wenn jemand nur auf freundlich tut, man ihm jedoch genau ansehen kann, dass er es nicht so meint. 

8. Nenne 4 Dinge, die du gerne machst!
Okay, nur 4: Sport, Bloggen, Youtube und gesund/leicht Essen

9. Gibt es ein Kleidungsstück, welches du nicht magst, aber trotzdem trägst?Ich mag nicht so gern 3/4 Hosen oder generell Hosen im Boyfriend-Cut. Jedoch meinen viele, dass sie mir stehen, ich finde sie persönlich eher unangenehm.

10. Wie wichtig ist dir das Aussehen?
Mir ist mein Aussehen schon wichtig, jedoch beziehe ich das eher auf gepflegtes Auftreten. Man sollte es nicht mit dem Aussehen übertreiben, oft ist weniger mehr. Daher denke ich, dass gesunde Zähne und gewaschene Haare wichtiger sind als ein durchgestyltes Outfit.

11. Gibt es etwas was du sammelst?
Außer Make-up eigentlich nichts. Ich hab aber früher als Kind Briefmarken, Steine, Münzen und Sticker gesammelt.

12. Was tust du wenn dir keiner zuschaut?
Laut Musik hören und dazu abdancen :D

13. Welche Farben trägst du gerne auf deinen Nägeln?
Ich habe seit langem eine Obsession für goldenen Nagellack. Ich finde er sieht immer so luxuriös und edel und dennoch zurückhaltend aus. Auch trage ich gerne bronzene Töne.

14. Nenne 3 Dinge die dir am am anderen Geschlecht gefallen!
Humor (auch die Fähigkeit über sich selbst lachen zu können), Intelligenz und gutes Benehmen

15. Mit was kommst du nicht klar?
Zum einen mit Ungerechtigkeit. Das bezieht sich nicht nur auf Situationen bei mir, sondern auch bei Freunden oder in der Familie. Ich denke, wenn man ein Recht hat und dieses von anderen Menschen missachtet oder übergangen wird und man selbst unter den Konsequenzen leiden muss, so muss über diese Ungerechtigkeit gerichtet werden.
Zum anderen mir schlechtem Benehmen wozu ich auch Unpünktlichkeit mit einrechne. Auch wenn ich es immer wieder versuche, schlechtes Benehmen, was sich durch Unpünktlichkeit, schlechte Tischmanieren, Unhöflichkeit usw. ausdrückt, zeugt bei mir von schlechter Erziehung.

16. Welche berühmte Person bewunderst du?
Früher habe ich Robbie Williams vergöttert. Das hat sich jetzt mit dem Alter gelegt, doch er hat immer noch ein Platz in meinem Herzen :)

17. Was ist deine größte Angst?
Zukunftsängste und Verlustängste. Zukunftsängste, weil ich nicht weiß, was ich als Beruf genau später machen werde und wie mein Privatleben dann aussieht. Verlustängste, ja, weil ich Angst habe für mich ganz wichtige Menschen zu verlieren.

18. Was bedeutet Glück für dich?

"Viele Menschen versäumen das kleine Glück, während sie auf das Große vergebens warten"  Pearl S. Buck

Ich denke, dass das große Glück eine allumfassende und zufrieden stellende Lebenssituation ist, die alle Bereiche umfasst. Dennoch ist der Weg das Ziel und daher sollte man nicht das kleine Glück, was jeden Tag spürbar und zu finden ist wichtig, Jeder Tag bringt ein schönes Detail mit sich und es ist das kleine Glück, dieses zu erfassen.

19. Was planst du schon lange, aber hast es immer noch nicht gemacht?
Ich will unbedingt während meines Studiums oder auch für einen längeren Zeitraum in Großbritannien leben. Ich habe mich nur noch nicht getraut diesen Schritt zu gehen.

20. Nenne etwas Merkwürdiges über dich!
Ich wache öfters mitten in der Nacht auf und obwohl ich tot müde bin, habe ich einfach keine List mehr im Bett zu liegen und bin einfach gelangweilt vom schlafen. Dennoch zwinge ich mich dann aber weiter zu schlafen :D

21. Wen taggst du?
ALLE! Bitte macht mit bei diesem Tag! Es ist wirklich eine schöne Weise, den jenigen ein wenig besser kennenzulernen.

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Alles Liebe,